The wars fought between countries and enemies cost bloodshed, injury, and death. The war you fight with yourself isn't physically this severe, but emotionally it's just as devastating. It leads you to the question... what happens when your heart leads you the wrong way? You spend months fighting your heart, telling yourself it'll be you that gets hurt in the end. However there comes a time when your strong mind falters and logic just doesn't make any sense. Sensibility falls second to your heart where your deepest desires are kept hidden away from the world 97% of the time. Your discipline dies, you compromise your beliefs, you surrender to a four letter word that only the bravest men and the luckiest women ever feel, love. When your heart wins the war, you haven't won. This is one battle, only one, and in the next you have no armour, no protection. You put your heart out on the street laying out for somebody to step on, and when it gets broken it feels like the wind was knocked out of you, like you fell off the side of the earth. You have no explanation for why you are crying, they could have done nothing but ignore you but you act as though they had dropped you off the edge of a building. You sulk for weeks and as soon as it seems like your wounds will never heal you wake up one morning and look out the window and you decide to give the world a second chance. The cycle repeats itself over and over. You let your heart get broken every time and every time you feel the same pain, the same heart getting stepped on till you feel like the next time it gets stepped on will be the one that shatters it. But at the same time of you give up, if you stop trying if you start to run away and close yourself up to everything you'll never win the war.
"When all is said and done the people that break your heart didn't ruin your life, they merely turned the next page for you."
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