Dignity

When I hear the word dignity,I automatically think of women in long lavender and mint green ball gowns, silently gliding into a fancy restaurant (you know the ones where they have those cute little forks and 3 different spoons so you can eat 1 bowl of ice cream, or sorbet as they call it:D). Then with a swish of their hand rejecting every guy that comes over to talk/flirt with them... When I thought of this, I was disgusted at how boring it all seemed. I never wanted to be dignified like the women in my mind. I just wanted to have fun!
 Well things didn't change and Im older and I just finished the 8th grade. When I was around guys I would be cutesy, flirty, innocent, gullible, and talk in this incredibly high pitched whiny voice. The guys paid attention to me so I thought it was working so in summer school I tried it out on the only guys in the class that I knew. When they started making fun of me I knew it was working because that's what the guys at school did. However, when I thought about it I realized that I didn't WANT to be made fun of. I wanted guys to flirt with ME not the other way around. I had been told by people that lots of guys liked me that year... but not one of them asked me out. Could it be because they actually DIDN'T like me? I mean I was a whiny little baby now that I look at it correctly. So from now on I'm going to carry myself with dignity like the women in my imagination... but I'm going to have fun with it. I'm going to be the one girl in the blue gown who can hold herself with dignity but still have fun. I'm going to try and stand out, because no one ever gets any action from the sidelines.


"enjoy your life, because you only get one"