Something New

We all look for something in life. Magazines and TV have shown us that what we need to be happy is to be pretty (which generally means no zits, big boobs, and a small waist), hook up with hot guys, and buy their advertised clothing. They show a very conformist, superficial way of being happy. I think what a person really wants in life is to be accepted. Accepted by their piers, they're family, they're co-workers. They want friends they want to never be bored they want a full life. I think that for anyone to have a full life, there can't be just good things. There has to be good and bad to balance each other out. If life were only filled with good things we would never appreciate the good things because bad things wouldn't be there to counteract the good. I think we all need to have a little bit of pain in our lives. Some get more than others no doubt and  some people get more extreme versions of pain at one period of time... but in the end, it all balances out and the people who experience no pain today while you do. Someday you're going to run into them again because anyone who walks into our lives never truly walks out forever. Then the tables will turn and you will see that pain comes no matter how "pretty" or popular you are. You can't decide how much pain you are going to get because that pain comes with how much God thinks you can take. However pain comes harder to those who deserve it more. Be a good person and pain will come to you but God will protect you and help you through it. Never worry about other people. Think of only you and how you can improve yourself today. Try smiling at a person on the street, you never know it may be the only smile they get all day. Be a good person and good things will happen to you, it may just take a little time.

"Popularity is fleeting, friendships last forever" 

Chick Flicks

For all you guys out there who think that "chick-flicks" are just a sorry excuse for girls to sit on the couch, stuff their faces with junk, and cry about their own sorry lives while writing it off as being emotional about the movie... you are 1. judgmental chauvinistic ass-holes and 2. completely unaware as to what is going on in you girlfriend's/mom's/sister's/chick friend's mind. Sure cliche girly girls some down the block, at your school, but mostly on TV do watch romantic comedies and The Notebook for a little over indulgence (that's an oxymoron :]) but most girls... yes like me, watch romantic comedies for the pure and unavoidable fact that... all the best actresses and all the hottest actors are in them. Ok I'm just kidding...kinda ;]. But really girls watch them because we can relate to them. They are movie portrayals of a girl's mind. They shout everything we are thinking inside of our brains... which surprisingly DON'T revolve around football, chips, video games, and action-horror films. Girls think about love and clothing and friendships and relationships and yes sometimes we think about what's going on in guy minds too. Guys who are actually in touch with the female mind are usually called faggots by their friends and sensitive by the girls around them. I think they are neither. Guys who watch chick flicks and read girls magazines are not gay UNLESS they like guys, and calling someone who is or isn't gay a faggot is a completely rude and derogatory to people who actually are and to the victim of the rude remark. In-touch males are also not necessarily sensitive because my cousin reads chick magazines and he dumped his girlfriend over myspace last week. Now how sensitive is THAT? Guys like that, in my opinion, are not sensitive and they are not homosexual. They are SMART. They realize somewhere under the hairspray and makeup that we have feelings and those feelings are triggered by the things we like to read and watch. He understands that to understand a girl he must think LIKE a girl and to think like a girl... well it's pretty darn simple since we practically broadcast it in local theaters everywhere in what has come to be known as "CHICK FLICKS". 

So all the smart guys out there... congratulations for not falling under the pressure of your friends calling you gay, because in the end they don't win.

you do.

List of Extraoridnary "Chick-Flicks" (for those who want to know)

1. He's Just Not That Into You

2. The Notebook

3. A Walk To Remember

4. Music & Lyrics

5. About A Boy

6. She's All That

7. Pride and Prejudice

8. Sleepless In Seattle

9. Bridget Jones' Diary/Bridget Jones: Edge of Reason

10.Titanic

Signing out <3 

Hot Summer

Yup my hot summer... my hot summer is studying myself mad in Health class at summer school. Hanging around the house. Watching my family mourn from the loss of my Grandfather, and learning things about myself. I've decided something, all through Junior High boys have been my main priority... and how many times has it worked out perfectly? 

0.

If I keep on focusing so much on finding the right guy (or in my case finding a decent guy) it's never going to happen. I will never find anyone if I keep acting the same way. If I want it to work out for me I will have to take a page out of Gigi's book and let some of the drama out of my life. Boys definitely fall under that category. So I'm focusing on my studies and my friends and seeing where it takes me if anything happens I will be sure to report. I look forward to sharing my summer with you and my adventures in high school. Whether or not they involve guys will be up to destiny and whether they want boys to be involved in my life. Personally I'm going to focus on trying to live my life to the fullest and give a 100% in everything I do.

Tip of the day: Reach for the stars. They aren't that far above your head. :)

 

Fast Forward

The story of my 8th grade existence is a long, painful, dramatic, degrassi resembling, horror story. So I'm going to skip the stories and the long antagonizing details and leave you with 5 things about my 8th grade year before returning to the future.

1. I had my first bf, a stalker by the name of Michael.

2. I broke many hearts. It's not as fun as it sounds.

3.I betrayed a girl who used to be my best friend.

4. I made a good group of friends and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

5. I had fun.

Welcome to Junior High

So as you can probably guess my summer was ROCKIN'. No cares no worries just fun in the sun and no expectations. Well as the old people say. "All good things must unfortunately come to an end"... but while I knew that things would never be THAT great... I knew I could never beat my graduating year at Mountainview elementary... aka the worst school EVER. (except for maybe Helmers). I went in with again an open mind and hardly any expectations. Except, that I was planning on having my first boyfriend... hahaha big mistake. See I still hadn't realized that I wasn't excatly a 10... so I was expecting boys to fall all over me like at CTG. Not smart thinking... cause I got very very cocky. That's NEVER attractive. So you can guess the reactions I got... well more like the REJECTIONS I got. In the course of my "trial year" of Junior High I had liked the most guys of any scrub girl in the school. (except for maybe this one girl named Brooke... who practically dated anything that moved and carried testosterone). I had liked 5 guys. Elijah: Sweet, friendly guy, someone you like for their PERSONALITY, but looks not so much. Kyle: Cute, arrogant, athletic star, 4.0 student,the guy everyone wanted to be. Surprisingly I think I was the only girl who liked him that year. Colton: HE LIKED ME FIRST... which is why I fell extremely hard for him... unfortunately he recovered faster than I could start falling.  Nathan: my rebound crush... he was "only a friend". I'm gonna spare you each of their tantalizing tales... and give you the brief on each one.

Elijah: Was in my drama class I met im at auditions. I remembered him and liked him for a while... my friends didn't approve. Anyway it didn't matter because he liked one of the mean girls from my 6th grade year. GREEEAATTTTT.... I got over him quick and never liked him like that again. Unfortunately studies have shown that he may have had a crush on me later that year. But studies have been proven wrong before.

Kyle: He sat next to me in science, I was a nervous wreck. I made it so obvious that our science teacher was clued in. The girls behind me made fun of me for it...I tried to ignore it. Then .... after I had gotten over him I magically became somewhat cool in that class... my friend Jessie though...not so cool. But I kinda stayed by her side. Anyways... by 4th quarter sparks were flying and the teacher was aware... but this time I wasn't the one making it obvious (e.g. the teacher lost a big packet of my work... and it REALLY affected my grade...until Kyle yelled...that's right YELLED at the teacher for me) point made.

Colton: Liked me first. Then was off and on for the rest of the year. He was a tough one to get over... but he made me quite popular...

Nathan: a rebound wat more is there to say except that I thought we were more but we were just friends... he redefined friendship between girls and guys for me... until then my guy friends never treated me like that.

never ever ever be desperate like me.

"quitting isn't giving up unless your running away."

-no song today-