Where Do I Go From Here?

I'm used to standing at crossroads, to make decisionsand to learn based on the pathway I choose. Where that leads me is usually another crossroad... but somehow I made a mistake and hit a dead end. Now I'm stranded on an island everything surrounding me is barren ground and thick gray mist and fog. There's nowhere for me to run no reason for me to hide. I don't feel sad or angry, I don't feel anything at all... which is consequentially worse. Way worse than any emotion I have ever felt in my lifetime. I've known heartache and pain that has made me stronger... I've felt joy, happiness, power, vulnerability, I've felt it all... but now I feel nothing. Is this what it feels like to die. I feel like I have died, like everything around me has disappeared and all that's left of me is an empty shell of a normal girl walking around pretending like she's interested in everything anybody has to say. I used to be upset when the things I tried didn't work out... now all I feel is nothing... and it scares me. I used to think I was special that I was meant to do something bigger, to have fun and live my life, a fantastic romance that someday I could write a book about. But everyday... that dream is fading away bit by bit. Till all that will be left is gray fog and mist. A lonely stretch of nothingness. I need to feel again... I want to feel again. But there is only one thing that will make me feel, I'm convinced of it... only one person can do anything about this... and I have yet to see it happen.. my time is running out... every day I feel a little less.. and I want it even more. If I don't get what I need soon... my personality may change permanently. I hope for the sake of myself... that something happens..fast. Someone needs to save me from this island... and tell me where I go from here.


"Where do i go from here, so many voices ringing in my ear, which is the voice that i was meant to hear? How will I know, where do I go.. from here?" -Pocahontas