Who to Choose?

In the grand scheme of things when people say that they are distressed because of 2 guys liking them people tend to roll their eyes and dismiss the problem as something to be thankful for. It sounds nice to other people.. but the reality, is that the people who do think its a wonderful thing to have to choose between 2 awesome guys have probably never had it happen to them. Of course I'm not upset by the fact that I'm appealing enough to one person let alone two that I could potentially have a decent relationship with. I mean it's a real confidence boost, don't think I'm not flattered. However.. as flattering and nice as this is... the truth is that at some point I can't just flirt with both. I have to choose. Now this is not the first time I've been in this situation. However in past times... I've made completely the wrong decisions... have destroyed all chance of dating either one.. or have hurt someone in the process. However you really can't avoid hurting someone in this situation can you? Either way you have to choose one... I always think I know what I want... but my problem is that I think I know, I go for it, then by the time they start liking me back... I want something else. It's a terrible process, it goes on forever like a horrible cycle of love and rejection... and worst thing about it.. is that it's MY fault.. but I don't know how to control it.. every time someone gets to close.. I run away. I must have commitment problems or something. Anyways.. again I have to choose... between two guys that are both really sweet and cute. I think I know what I want... but my friends want me to be with the other one. Believe me they don't have to say it. I know. But for some reason the other one... just seems more compatible... I've been friends with him longer for sure... and I can tease him and joke around with him.. and he does it right back. We can find stuff to talk about.. mainly because he isn't always around me which means he has a life and he won't be clingy. However he seems to have a little bit of the same problem as me.. he's had very few.. very short relationships... he's always the dumper... and he's never been kissed. I mean it sounds bad, but wouldn't that just add to the things we have in common? The other guy is a sophomore.. so we have no classes together.. we have some stuff in common but in truth I met him yesterday so I'm still getting to know him. It's hard to say how much we'd be able to talk about.. but I can sometimes feel that I won't have much to talk about with him... I just don't know if I'll benefit from a relationship with him if i should have one. However hes really sweet and a really cute. But hes also a sophomore... he doesn't seem like the type to pressure a girl.. but what if he does.. hes older and stronger. I think I'd feel better with the other on the fact that hes a freshman alone. I think the best thing to do in this situation is make a pro con list... and see where that goes. In these kinds of situations all you can really do is follow your heart.. even if someone might have to get hurt in the end.

"Your heart is key to all you desire, it is the center of your being. Follow it and you will find what you're looking for. Let it break and you must pick up the pieces. Let it shatter and you can't survive. Let it love and you will have everlasting happiness."

Let your heart love<3

Ali:)