A Whole New World

Well.. It's winter break now. I'm back after an entire semester of completely new and unfamiliar experiences. I'll be the first one to tell you straight up that high school is NOTHING like Junior High. Everything is so different. (e.g. there are fights, people "date" but aren't bf/gf, and school years are measured in semesters ... not years.) I made a whole new batch of friends this year, however half of them aren't even going to be able to associate with me next year. Everything changes. It's like the end of the year.. except in winter. We even get new teachers and periods and everything. First semester wasn't too much fun for me. I basically spent all of the beginning trying to deal with my ex boyfriend... he was really annoying and there was tons of drama after the breakup that really was all his fault. However different things may have seemed on the exterior.. I found a way to make things more familiar... aka my love life ... EXACTLY the same. Once again I fell for another guy that didn't want to date me... I believe when I told him I liked him his exact words were "I know", then he walked away never to text me again. :/ welcome to  the life of me. This one was kind of obvious from the beginning... well not at the very beginning. See at the beginning he was totally into me. He texted me all the time and talked to me and flirted ... we even had to be boyfriend and girlfriend in a music video at his disposal... dude he nominated me (and got the rest of his class to nominate me too) for homecoming. He was totally into me... right? WRONG! Just like every other time SOMETHING happened half way there.. and I was left in the dust (metaphorically) again. It makes me wonder if this will EVER stop.. if I will ever be in a relationship. Well... actually at the moment... relationships really aren't my biggest concern... I mean they were when I had nothing else to occupy my time.. but now I have Act Up. See this little organization is a competitive acting on which I am the only freshman. :D I absolutely love this. It's really the only part of high school I find enjoyable. It's not just the fact that I'm actually good at it.. but it's also the people and everything. Don't get me wrong I'm not going to ditch everything I already know and love just to hang with the cool juniors that decided that I was adorable enough to love. :) But it's nice to be part of something. I can't think about it to much though.. because usually when something is great for me.. something usually goes wrong or it changes for the worst. This kind of stuff always happens to me. So to prevent that from happening I'm just gonna go with the flow and not obsess over it. Because that's usually when things go wrong. I really hope that second semester turns out a little better than first. Not that first semester wasn't ok... but it wasn't great. In fact it kind of sucked. I take back the first part. First semester made me hate high school, but right now it seems like it might be ok after all. That's the key to high school, GET INVOLVED. Once you do, everything else will fall into place. As I'm hoping they do in the next few months for me. Wish me luck. I will be posting during winter break! :)